onewinqedAnqel

Im very sorry that i must be so hideous from my eyes to my nose,from my lips to my chin,from my head to my toes.
my heart is  black and my soul is cold.
but the love i have for you is like no other.

ill never be that girl with long shiny black hair or glistening green eyes
ill never be preety or perfect
ill never be tall or smart ill never have preety round toes.
ill never be puertorican
ill never be that perfect girl you always dreamd of.
But i can assure you youll never find someone that loves you as much as i do.
you mean the world to me and so much more.

i know im not the greatest person you ever met
i know im not the nicest person or the smartest
i may have no talent
i may have nothing at all.

i promise i can try to be better to keep you as long as i can
even knowing that one day you will abandon me
and you will scar me forever.and please dont tell me again that its not going to happen or that im crazy beacuse i know im not. i juss know . i know this because i know me. and the person thats inside my mind wont let me live the life i want.
eventually i will go insane eventually you will leave me

BUT...

i can still try to be my best.
i know i may be disgusting and mean but if you give me a chance and look on the inside deep deep down past my face, past my skin ,past my body , past my cold soul
and into my dark heart. if you search hard enough i know you will find a light.
it may be small it may not show itself as much.But that small light is the thing that keeps me alive. and that small light is you<333
ratsak<33

WHEN SHE FINALL HAS A MOMENT OF PEACE?!

WHAT YOU DOING SOFIA?

huh?
oh fuck not again

YES ITS ME YOU THINK I WOULD LEAVE YOU IM NOT STUPID

juss leave me alone go away

OH BUT I WONT WERE HAVING SO MUCH FUN

no fuck off i hate you

YOU SHUDDENT HATE ME..YOU SHOULD HATE YOU!

why? what did i do to you just let me be

WHY? WELL BEACUSE YOUR STOOPID WORTHLESS YOUR UGLY

no im not you are

SOFIA I AM YOU

no your differnt

NO FREAK I LIVE IN YOU YOUR ME IM YOU

well i dont want to live with you anymore..can i please leave

WELL SURE IF WANT..SEE THAT BOTTLE WITH THOSE PILLS

yes what about them

WELL GO POP ALL OF THEM ONE BY ONE

if i do that will you leave me?

WHY OFCOARSE AND YOU SHALL DIE TOO

but i dont want to die

WELL THEN STAY WITH ME FOREVER

but i dont want to stay with you

OH NO OH NO YOUR GOING CRAZY NOW HAHAHAHAHAHA

so thats what you want you want me to suffer

YES THIS IS MY PURPOSE..TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU DONT HAVE A PURPOSE

so i have no choice no hope im trapped..i have to be with you forever or die

why should i have to be one of those people who have been chosen to be the cursed ones!!(yes i know im being selfish once again) but i cant help it!! why should i have to wake up in the morning by force with no desire to see the sun, no desire for anything at all.see if i had a choice i would very much enjoy laying in bed for the rest of my life till i rot. but i dont because of people..i hate people. they expect too much from me,but still i live for them because of love.because i dont want to hurt them or let them down.but what if there were no people in the world.what if i only exsisted??would i still have this hatred for myself? most likely yes.ughh....im so confused i feel like im in a stray jacket of hate & i cant break free..the only thing that frees me temporarily is sleeping.god how i love sleeping and dreaming.i have dreams that i was someone or something else. and thats what hurts the most when i know that i woke up and it was all a lie.maybe if i slept my whole life i would die while i dreamt. and even though i had died physiclly maybe my mind would live on dreaming & i wouldent have to suffer ever again.but i wont know till i die =[ damn life really is horrible.

=/